Live Long & Prosper
I’ve gotten lots of e-mails today asking about the “first day of retirement” and I think the answer has surprised even me. It’s as if this weight that I didn’t know was there has lifted from my shoulders–it’s a very odd feeling. I was so used to the stress that I had stopped noticing it and, now that it’s gone, it’s almost as if there’s something missing–some part of me that’s gone. Was it a part that defined me, I don’t think so–but the upcoming weeks will tell.
Pandamonium reigned at the zoo today. The true panda-passion folks were out in force–the wall of the panda house looked like a bunch of folks lined up outside a Walmart waiting for a Black Friday sale–they honestly appeared to be planning to spend the night–and I say that with all fondness for them.
A visitor today asked me what all the commotion was about–how she didn’t understand it–so I took the time to talk with her and explain my own reactions. Tai came into the world in a very difficult time; I was facing chemotherapy and wondering if I would ever make it to retirement. When we finally got to see him, I was immediately entranced; his image kept me smiling. My new DSLR became my constant companion. A year later, as my husband retired and, together, we looked for something for him to do–there was Tai and the zoo. Three years later we are both actively involved in the zoo–it’s a constant and growing part of my life. If you were to talk with the pandaholics you would find so many similar stories. Tai came into our lives when we needed him.
So, yes, I’ve shed some tears over his leaving–not because I don’t want him to go–he needs to go to a bachelor pad where he can meet some hot chicks–not live next to his mom & dad. I cry because of the things he’s helped me through and the wonderful paths my life has taken because of him. New friends, new challenges, a whole new world.
Live long & prosper, my friend